friday!@!@!



i think i sh0uld learn t0 shut up at times and 0nly keep c0mments t0 myself in that pea brain 0f mine... in 0rder t0 av0id anym0re quarrels..



s0 what if cny HAS ARRIVED?



lets begin with the sad things..
- i had super bad dreams last nite t0king ab0ut international ec0ns.. i was like wtf?
-hey arse
after that incident that u actually msg me saying that u are attached and ask me to rmb it . well u dare msg me t0day calling me darling? wtf u think i am sia? can let u lecture then play huh?s0n 0f a neinei....N0W U FEIGN IGN0RANCE THAT U DIDN;T MSG ME? LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR TO U.. LETS STAY AS STRANGERS..

n0w lets t0k ab0ut happy tings =)
here are s0me pic t0 l00k.. there is pugi's perf0rmance pic hahas.. c00l huh

this is a pic of the coloured rice.. well even though i didn't participate but i think the class did a very g00d j0b=) it is damn nice .. sh0uld have w0n the t0p l0r..hahas this is a picture of me, diane and wendy on the way 0ut t0 sch00l.. i was s0 0dd la.. came t0 sch in s0ccer pants and a white p0l0 fr0m m0bile gear..see la.. this two woman s0 fierce .. drag me to dalvin's h0use BY F0RCE LAHAHAS SEE GUYS ARE SO ENGROSS IN GAMES.. CMI SIA.. omg he l00ks cute huh?hahas.. ar0und 4 pm i cab h0me then wait f0r time t0 fly bef0re i g0 f0r water p0l0 training..
this m0rning went t0 help 0ut my ah ma...

i miss u ah gong =D...

0h ya.. went 0ut t0 bugis t0 buy a new EVERLAST JERSERY =d



T0day is the seventh day..
heard that y0u will be back..
s0 pls d0 give any0ne 0f us a dream t0 tell us if u are d0ing fine..

went t0 visit u this m0rning ..
dad says that u t00 shy and n0t daring t0 fight f0r f00d..
that makes me very sad...

pray that 0thers will take care 0f u



see that my heart is br0ken?
hear that it shattered in pieces?
the freaking feeling 0f l0neliness is 0ccupying my heart..
it is painful...


btw hey ARSE!
i dun get u when u suddenly tell me that u are with ur gf and u are already attached and it is n0t g00d t0 g0 0ut l0r alone.. pls h0r dun get the misconcepti0n that i like u lor.. pls know the fact that i treat both guys and girls equality g00d. if u can hit well with me of cos i will talk m0re t0 u right? and treat u like a buddy or more of a close ' male friend' FRIENDSHIP DO EXIST BETWEEN FRIENDS.. but since u put ur words across so straight f0rward then be it..
u t0ld me since i kn0w that u g0t a gf then i must rmb that u have one.. but WHY DO I HAVE TO EVEN RMB IT IN THE FIRST PLACE? i dun wish to waste y brain cells..and that is ur problem fr0m n0w 0n.. N0NE OF MY BUSINESS... we shall end our FRIENDSHIP HERE...


argkjrpoenv..... RAHHHS...
my m00d t0tally g0ne.. thanks t0 an arse!

t0m0 i am g0ing t0 bright hill there to give 0ffering to u..
d0 u kn0w i seriously miss u al0t..
the last image of u when i last saw u on ur bed lying there motionlessly..
i keep crying and tell myself everything is over..
but do u know how much impact was left deep down in my heart?

arghhhhhhh......... my heart is bleeding ..
one heart two cries three cuts...

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE..
2009 SUCKS TO THE FUCKING CORE..
I SHALL BURY MYSELF IN WORK AND BUSY LIFE



WHY WHY WHY DID U LEFT ME WHEN U KNOW THAT I L0VE U S0 MUCH

WHY WHY WHY WAS I THE 0NE THAT U ABAND0N IN THIS FREAKING W0RLD

WHY WHY WHY LIFE WON'T BE THE SAME WITH0UT U AGAIN

OH FUCK THIS W0RLD....

SGH SUCKS T0 THE C0RE..
WHY ARE TH0SE NURSE LACK 0F A SENSE 0F RESPONSIBILTY
WHY DIDN'T THEY EVEN REALISE THAT U WERE G0NE TILL I ACTUALLY FIND 0UT..
WHY WERE THEY LAUGHING WHILE TRYING TO RESCUE U
WHY ARE THEY WALKING AT SUCH A SLOW PACE T0 GET THE EQUIPEMENTS WHILE REVIVNG U

WHY DID U LEAVE ME CRYING ...
MY ATTEMPTS TO SUCIDE IS RUIN..

MY HEART WILL CARVE UR NAME AND THE PIC OF U . ALWAYS

I CUT AND BLEED AND I CRY TO SLEEP

PLSPLSPLS .. IF TIME COULD HAVE GONE BACK ..
I SWEAR TO JUMP AND DIE NEXT TO YOU...

I L0VE U



new teacher f0r 0804..
hahas he is very hum0ur0us i must say =D

mayb this is a hint of a g00d start f0r me..l0ls...
weeeee....

i just went swimming..0mg my stamina sucks f0r freestyle..
argh!!!

i need new g0ggles and swimwear..
pls drop m0ney fr0m sky f0r me and i will l0ve u l0ts..

my new year resolutions... GET TO KNOW ******** AS A **
ellene and gavin and my buddies know =)
secret k



HELL0S?!
hahas... i am getting a bit crazy of d0m0..
d0m0 has g0t sh0rt hands, sh0rt legs and sh0rt b0dy..
it is br0wn brown de with very big mouth..
it s0unds as th0ugh i am describing ******
hahas..o00ps ..

i miss my ah g0ng..
i h0pe he faster s0 that we can bring him h0me during CNY..
haiz.. i h0pe i won't get use to sinking into depression
i dun wan to raise that sharp thing and bleed again..
but that is the only way i love to release and vent my anger..

my gastric is acting up again..l0ls

i realise i have got no pillows t0night



t0day went f0r water p0l0 training..
the first girl i met was from RJC ..
she is friendly- called Melissa
the second girl l00ks fierce
she is called- Rachel ( only pri 6 but she is a very good player)
third girl is also very funny..
she is called En Nian from ACJC
....
then training starts with 20 continuous laps of width...
sian..the moment i swim and see the bottom..
my legs are like wobbly..
i nv knew that the pool is so freaking deep..
a V cut down to 4.5 metres k..
siansian

i am a noobie and newbie!
so i started learning how to behave like a egg beater so i can remain floating on water
then i start to learn how to throw ball at net on land
lastly i throw ball in water..
it is super difficult..
u have nothing to stablised urself on la...
u just have keep kicking to push urself up and throw the ball...

now i smell like chlorine..
ahhas

watch them played match

then walk home, the below picture is me under the light.... hahas just a random shot

When i reach home..

i saw HUi min!

SEE THE ABOVE PHOTO...

hahas sorry for the inverted..

hahas... she is my god sister..l0ls.

just came back from australia- perth at slumber areas..which she complaints that is very boring...cos there is only two huge shopping mall.. which is the size of half suntec....

now having holiday and she is going uni during feb as she has completed her college liao

ENVY!

in the h0spital..
gazing upon th0se birds flying freely in the vast sky...
he said: imagine u are like th0se birds... u can fly freely..
and suddenly 0ne pers0n BANG u d0wn...
and imagine u as a bird... u are a human .. walking 0n the streets happily and suddenly a car BANG u d0wn..
hahas... this is s0 sadistic la..
but wh0 said it?
it is n0ne 0ther than edward...l0l

spend my wh0le sunday with edward slacking ar0und..
i tink edward reminds me of f00d..
i keep having the hunger symptom ..omgomg...

praying f0r ur speedy rec0ver..
t0m0 i am g0ing f0r water p0l0 training.. AL0NE...
h0pe i w0n;t dr0wn and die in the p00l ..
i am l0ner...sian..



ytd went back t0 wss ..
c0s 0pen h0use and pei edward g0 see mr yang..(my sec 1 chinese teacher )h0h0h0...
tian min als0 came al0ng with us =D

saw miss chin!
she l00ks very pretty as usual...l0ls
then just chit chat abit with her..
then g0 watch edward play basketball..l0ls
t0k t0 a few basketball girls who are g0ssiping ab0ut the jersery girl - pauline..
l0ls... which i refer it t0 edward's crush( n0 0ffence.. edward is damn petty... always get angry when i tease him la =x)
i didn;t realise until a girl t0ld me that..the lady incharge if basketball is the new ART TEACHER..
wah piang eh.. she s0 petty and h0t-tempered..
she came t00 early to the c0urt then she g0 sc0ld the basketballers girls why they so late..
and i eavedrop ..
but i 0nly heard' if u all n0t happy then dun c0me.. can cl0se d0wn de'..
0mg0mg are all artistic pe0ple with such weird temper..l0ls

then edward saw j0j0..
she is very funny..
she t0ld edward that she l00ks ugly c0s she nv put makeup..
but i find that her features are nice en0ugh le..
dun really need makeup t0 actually enhance it c0s she is beauty in nature =D
cosmetic spolits the face fast leh..
u will clot the p0res very fast lor..

lalas... studying bi0l0gy while edward and tian min played basketball..l0ls



as i h0ld his left leg up..
drip by drip .. fresh bl00d r0lls d0wn the w0und..
like a tap that has n0t been fully tightened...
as i bend d0wn m0re t0 l00k at his w0und..
i smelt a pungent smell that is c0ming fr0m his leg..
t0 my h0rr0r.. i realised that his heel b0nes have l0ng ag0 turned black..
it was gr0ss..
and the nurse said: his legs are in very bad c0nditi0n..
thr0ugh0ut the 1 h0ur w0und dressing sessi0n ..she has urged us t0 send him t0 the h0spitial f0r amputati0n 0f his leg...because even th0ugh she is coming t0 dress the w0und..h0wever.. his legs are n0t g0ing t0 heal... his legs n0 l0nger has the ability to supp0rt him as the bl00dstream has been cl0t..
but wad is the point of amputating his legs when he feels that l0ssing his legs makes him like a cripple.. i believe that he has suffered enough throughout his life..
his son hated him in their hearts.
when he was young he is ill tempered....
he punished them regardless with or without reason..
even when he is hospitalised .. his sons will not visit him..
his life is ill-fated..
i hate to accept fate that when people gr0w old they have to die...
why can't he pass away in peace rather than enduring these pain..

from young till now..
i have seen him aged..
from 2 legs to 3 legs and now o m0re legs..cos he is alm0st bed ridden..
i hate to see him being put in the old folk home.. or the nursing home..
what happen if the people over there ill-treat him?
i will feel so gulity to actually let their children place them there
..which father or mother hopes for the day they are placed in those places..
where they are so lonely..
there is no one there to talk to them other than the nurses..
i hate this !
i FUCKING HATE THIS ENDING..


the nurse said if he doesn't amputate his legs ..
he is left with 1 more month minimum bef0re the germs reaches the hip bone then slowly spread to his whole body..
i dun want the ending to be like my uncle...
i hate diabetes...
i h0pe that s0me0ne s0meday will find a cure t0 this disease..
because i kn0w h0w painful it is..
if i have a choice i wish to die before he dies.. because...
i dun wan to feel so sad and crying in despair the moment i tok about him



IPOD FROM DEAR
MY PIECE OF ART
SEXY UNDIES FR0M MY DARLINGS...

t0day is the 5th day 0f 2009..
sian..
when t0 sch00l..t0 d0 s0me pr0ject
recieved my present fr0m my darlings...l0ls
that got me 3 under garments..
VERY CUTE RITE.. ESPECIALLY THE MONKEY ONE LALAS..

I FINALLY UPDATED PHOTOS..

Claron!
Dorcas!
Dalvin!
Diane!
Fiona!
Michelle!
Serene!
Songwee!
Yijun!
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